Saturday, December 27, 2014

Something for nothing


Going, going, gone
Go ahead admit it... we all love a
bargain. Buried deep within our DNA
is a need to get something for nothing,
more for less, and do it before anyone
else. Hence for centuries humans have
risen early to search for the proverbial
maltese falcon of deals. This morning
the first thing I did upon awakening
was log onto my favorite stationer to
buy next year's Christmas cards. Given
holiday never goes out of style - why
shouldn't my greetings of the season
be done at 70% off? Worth the wait!
Get while the getting is good
Most everyone likes nice things and
thankfully some of us can actually
afford them. Yet why waste money?
Last week well before Christmas -
Barneys, Bergdorf's, and Saks Fifth
quietly shifted their designer togs to
sale. Unheard of in the past, suddenly
one could don their gay apparel for a
holiday party without having to break
the bank. Honestly, I have no problem
with that. If somebody is willing to
give it away, why shouldn't I grab
whatever I can for as little as possible?
The price is right
The problem is we've lost all sense of
value. What is that suit really worth?
They say that our sense of pricing is
based on our first entry into the work
force. In other words, one suddenly
realizes what things cost when they
leave the nest and start spending their
own cash. Somehow I find said theory
flawed. At the time I thought my first
Calvin Klein suit (purchased at Saks
in 1979) cost a fortune - yet in reality
I quickly overcame any sticker shock
and happily evolved up ever since.
What the buck?
But honestly, most of us finally reach the
point where we have to question whether
any garment is worth thousands of bucks.
When we lived in the city, this Montanan
had no problem being a frequent shopper
at the two B's - Bergdorf's and Barneys.
People actually called me by name - a
sign that too much of one's retirement
fund was being blown on cashmere. Yet
within that time and place it all seemed
to make sense. However now that I live
in the real world, I've taken a step back.
How much is too much or too little?
Walk the walk
Here in God's country we seem to need
very little. Suddenly fifty linear feet of
designer flippery seems wasteful. While
some might want to step into our shoes -
I doubt either of us will ever wear most
of them again. Life is simpler here and
that's fine with me. Don't get me wrong,
neither of us intend to wear overalls or
Mucks to church or dinner. That said, it
does not seem feasible that I'll ever need
multiple tuxedos or dinner jackets again.
That's just not done in the wild west and
that's just fine with this urban cowboy!
Questions anyone?
Which brings me full circle to the concept
of consumption. While the idea of getting
more for less is absolutely satisfying -
if one doesn't need it - the getting doesn't
matter. Given most of us have more than
we need and many other's don't - maybe
it's time to give back. Be it cash, wisdom,
resources, or hours - I've got all of this
pent up experience that must be worth
something to someone. Hence I'm ready
to consider invitations from charitable
organizations that need help. I've got a
feeling that we'll ALL win in the bargain.

Friday, December 26, 2014

The greatest gift of all


Reason for the season?
Sometimes in the flurry of holiday
mania we forget what we're really
celebrating. I find the frenzy leading
up to the main event more than a
distraction. Between the pressures
of decorating, entertaining, and gift
shopping - it's hard to keep in mind
that this season is all about love.
Add the inter dynamics of family and
one can easily become a scrooge over
night. Fortunately when we become
more than jaded - suddenly something
can still jolt us back to reality.
Over and out
This year has been tough. A series of
circumstances at our Catholic Parish
caused us to leave the church. Since
then many former Catholics have
been searching as they process what
happened this summer. As you may
recall, two beloved parishioners were
cast out simply because they were gay
and married. The resulting rift in what
was once one spiritual body caused
many to question their relationship
with the church. Sadly what God had
once joined was now asunder.
Torn between two lovers
The impact on our family has truly
been challenging. What once united
us now divides us. As Christmas Eve
came around - each of us had to make
a very emotional and personal choice
about where to worship. Now part of
our local Episcopal parish, I took my
commitment to an even deeper level
and joined the choir. Whereas Frank
opted out as he processed the impact
of errant organized religion on his
faith. Where was God and why did
it seem that he had forsaken us?
Gone but not forgotten
After Christmas Eve dinner at our home
I rushed off to sing my heart out. It was
dark and stormy yet my newfound oasis
beckoned through the snow. As I sat in
the pew waiting for the service to begin,
I couldn't help but mourn what was lost.
Once we celebrated the season together.
Now we went our separate ways. How
sad that the arrogant actions on one man
of God could cause such pain. Trying to
forget the past I prayed and meditated -
thanking God for his blessings and my
partner who loves me no matter what.
A gift from God
In time the choir stood up to sing.
Facing the congregation, I looked
out at the faces of refugees from
judgmental conservatism. It felt as
if God had led us all to the shelter of
Saint James church. I couldn't help
but be touched, humbled, and most
grateful for this safe haven of equality
and acceptance. Then suddenly, I saw
an even more familiar face in the last
row of the church. Quietly my better
half had slipped in to join all of us as
we celebrated the most holy season.
Reason to celebrate
I struggled to sing as I choked back
tears of joy. That's because I knew
how much of effort and emotion it
took for Frank to cross that portal.
More important - he was honoring
both God and me. Often the best
things in life are free. While we all
crave "things" - love is the most
precious gift of all. Frank's presence
in that place was a sacrifice, much
like the child whose birth we were
celebrating that night. Miracles do
still happen on Christmas Eve!

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Merry Christmas!


A CELEBRATION OF LOVE
Whatever you do
or do not believe in -
few can argue that a day
that is solely dedicated to
celebrating gifts of love 
is anything but a good thing.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!